Lately I've been feeling, that's how I always start off. But so far away. People, places, memories, feelings, crushes, food, so much. It feels like it swirls around in my life so fast and everything amazing happens and then it's gone and it can't come back. I guess you really gotta live in the moment. But that's what I do.. I guess I just have to go to sleep. I wish that I understood everything at this time, there are so many questions swirling in my head that I don't know how to answer.