Tuesday, 20 October 2015


For the past year or so, I've been thinking about what to say.

In the space of a year, I have changed immeasurably as a person. Moments and experiences catapulted at me to make me grow as a sixteen year old, and to learn to put myself first. I learnt things that will probably stay with me for a lifetime and then some. That's the difference when you're growing out of your awkward teenagery boots into adult heels. You feel everything, sometimes new & raw emotions that you cannot possibly begin to explain. Looking at the world and breathing it all in, and then some days you feel full of emotions that you can't begin how to know how to handle.

I've been thinking hard and long about how I wanted to come across on this blog - whether I wanted to keep it simple or be wordy, earthy and rambly. I think that I outgrew the old style of this blog and the whole 'trying to fix the world at 15.' We've all been through a patch as a teenager where we felt quite lost and didn't know how to let our voices out - as us. There are always expectations to be someone in this society. We are always so busy filling up our lives with memories, relationships, jobs, meaning and more moments that we forget to look at the bigger picture and realise that we have one shot.

Growing up and finding yourself is definitely a challenge. Here are some things that I have realised for myself, that at some point I wish someone could have told me. In life you have to learn for yourself, these are those things:

The thing about this vast tip is that it is actually very difficult. Trying to fit in, and not being accepted is truly the worst. But you know what?? Who actually cares? There's going to come a time when you realise you don't have to necessarily fit into a certain category. High school is demanding in that sense that there are cliques and groups and sometimes when you don't fit into one of them you can feel left out, and rejected. After high school, the bubble will have burst and you will realise that going off and doing your own thing means that there is more to life than just fitting in, even though your teenage heart says otherwise.
Why waste your time pretending to like certain things, or lying about something very real about you? The thing is people genuinely appreciate when you can come raw and clean, giving off the 'actually this is me and if you don't like it, that is not my problem' attitude.

I know that it is hard for some people to feel happy and confident unless they belong to a group of friends, or even just to one person but a little leap of confidence in being individual can be that extra boost in feeling ultra ace. There is around 7 billion people - and none of them are you! Isn't that radical? You're worth more than you feel.

One thing that I learnt the hard way was realising that there is a repetitive cycle of attracting the wrong kind of people. When you are a person that wants to help out and fix other peoples' problems, some creature-people can take this aspect of you for granted and leech onto your light, trying to drag you down with them. It's not always intentional, but when people are hurt and sad, they try to cast the burden onto you, to transfer their pain. Most people depend on others to gain happiness but in reality happiness should be found within you. Being tolerant and nice is one thing, but choosing to put yourself in a repetitive, negative situation where you come out feeling miserable, is no fun at all. The easiest way to do this is to surround yourself with motivated people, who know where they want to go. People that don't come with expectations of you, or are only there when you are successful. Sometimes the best thing you can do for yourself is to cut yourself off from someone who brings you down. It's as simple as that. It's your right to do so - it doesn't mean you love them any less, it just means that you shouldn't have to feel miserable in the process.

Before you tell yourself 'I can't do this' or 'There's no point - it isn't going to work anyway', stop and think for a second. This may sound 100% lame but you should try to believe in yourself. After all, no one can do it better than you. Your life clock is already ticking away, and one day you are going to wish you had believed in yourself and given yourself a chance sooner. Why should you cut yourself short from the talents that are inside you? Just because you have failed at something before, it doesn't mean you should stop right away and give up. The greatest people only achieved greatness through constant trial and error until they found a solution.

This is one thing that I cannot stress enough. In the simplest way, if someone that you put effort and time into on a daily basis makes you feel less in any way then you have every right in the world to walk away. You have every right to cut off a toxic person from your life. You can shut down relationships with people that make you feel bad about who you are or what you believe in. People you surround yourself with aren't supposed to make you feel bad but should help build you up. Also, anyone you date should make you feel like you are special. If you feel worse when you are around them, or they find excuses to belittle you or change you, DITCH EM'. The whole idea of being with somebody is to bring out the good in each other and simply be there for each other and make each other happy. It's simple really. You don't have to stick with someone in a relationship if they control you, make you feel like shit, or just inflict any pain on you in any way at all. You have the right to be happy. People that you surround yourself with should lift you up and make you feel alive.

Loss is always going to happen. Just like rain is going to fall, or your nail polish is going to chip, or mud sticks between your toes. You know when you're a teenager and you feel every emotion under the sun? Or when you finally fall in love and realise it's real for the first time and you don't want to lose them? Sometimes when relationships come to an end it feels like the whole world is closing in on us, as we can't imagine being without that person and we don't want to realise that the memories shared with these special people, might begin to become just memories. Know that it's okay to feel these emotions, feeling pain is just a part of life that makes us understand the value of relationships and connections. Remember, you don't always have to get on with it immediately. Pain is pain, and people deal with it in different ways. If you need time to get over someone and to spend time being alone that is okay. You don't have to fling yourself on the rebound train just because you want to feel loved again. Relationships are about finding what you need/deserve, and sometimes it is important to experience the end of relationships so that you can learn things from them. NO relationship is a waste of time, if you were treated badly - then at least you know that you don't deserve that kind of b.s. Also, the best things are born out of heartbreak. Most songs that are about heartbreak have so much depth and meaning behind them - so if you have just recently ended a relationship with someone and want to wallow in it, get into a comfy outfit, buy a carton of ice cream and pump those heartbreak beats.

Making that change from a teenager to an adult is a big deal. In those three to five years, your life will change drastically. The most important thing that I have found, having lived on this earth for a mere sixteen years is the importance of family. Family know you better than you know yourself, that is where the essence of unconditional love comes from. Sisters and brothers are the BEST thing ever... and even if they annoy the living daylights out of you, when you are older you will realise that they are your best friends and their daily teasings of you actually might have kept you grounded. Also it rocks having older sisters as I have access to a free wardrobe 24/7. My parents work hard everyday, in every aspect of their lives to make my life better - and it is because they love me. A very important thing to understand is that as a teenager you are not entitled to anything from your parents. Your parents don't have to buy you a car, or pay for your schooling. They do this because they love you and choose to help you prosper and grow. Of course there is a role that they must play as parents, but learning to be grateful for the blessings in your life is something that will benefit you in the long run. Having parents that love and support you is a rare thing. I have learnt not to expect things, as it is not my right but my privilege.

If you don't have a relationship with your parents or family, friends can fill that gap. It is merely about who you can be yourself around, and have a reciprocal relationship with unconditional love towards each other. Relationships I find, bring more joy and meaning into my life.

Insecurity is a very real thing. In my life I have met some people that I considered flawless. Pure, intellectual and loving people. They admitted to me that they had been through periods of insecurity, and through my honey coated view of them I could not see how this was possible. This is why I think that you should give yourself a break. Calling yourself negative names, filling your head up with ugly words can be a real stab to your confidence. After all, you can't possibly step out of your body, so how can you call yourself ugly when you are smiling with happiness, or laughing at a lame joke someone made. If you're upset and shedding tears, or doing something as simple as vacumming where you are concentrating and don't have to be anyone else but you. How could you call those little moments ugly? Life is too short to look at yourself harshly, with no appreciation to your talents or judging yourself compared to someone else. At the end of the day you have to accept who you are because telling yourself things that you are not will do you nothing but harm. After all, being yourself is the prettiest that someone can be.

Tip: imagine yourself sitting on a couch with your seven year old self. The innocence is still fresh in your young self, and the excitement of life. Picture yourself telling this seven year old that they are ugly, and mean nothing. That they are fat, or have an annoying laugh. That they are going nowhere. Can you possibly say this to a seven year old, and watch them cry? It's the same thing, except you are older and telling yourself these things can do you nothing but harm. Give yourself a break.

From a young age, I have always worked hard for the things that I wanted. Even if they were little things, like getting a licence, or learning to drive, or getting my first paid job. Setting goals and working hard for yourself can never do you wrong, as it sets you up for understanding what the real world will be like when you leave high school. I am a sixteen year old teenager with a palette of colour-emotions; cerulean-sad, magenta-love, sunflower yellow-happy, wooden green calm. When I was first exposed to these raw emotions, I never knew how to place myself or handle certain scenarios. All people are different, but the basis of what is expected of someone to get where they want to be is to work hard. There is a refreshing feeling, almost overwhelming after you have achieved a goal. It's almost like you know that you can do it - that all this hard work has paid off to make you benefit from it.

Those are things that I wish someone had told me.
I x

Saturday, 4 October 2014

In Time

Time is a funny thing. Humans created it as a way of keeping track of our lives, so we were prompt and knew what we were doing. Seconds, minutes, hours, days, years, centuries, millenniums - all a human bred concept. We all hear that phrase every day almost, "I don't have enough time." Yes, you do actually. Time is the most important thing that you could ever give somebody. Parts of your life that you could never get back.

We live in the present; not the past or the future. What once was, will never be the same. That's the funny thing about time, it's always changing and growing - much like the person I want to be. Time can be selfish and greedy, taking things away from you when you didn't expect it. When we're asleep and our eyelids first flutter open, our world starts again. But in reality, it never stopped. We just gained consciousness, and were present in time, not just our bodies because our noisy minds needed a break from when we were awake.

I have realised, that time shouldn't be wasted. You can say to yourself, "I'll just do that another day." If you are capable of doing that thing you pushed aside, do it today. Do it before a list of things that you wish you had done comes piling up to your eyelids and you can't do it anymore. Time has a funny way of working. It can decide that a person's time here on earth is up, due to circumstance. Value your time with someone, even if you see them everyday. Find the beauty in the cracks of imperfection in someone, or the colour that the sun makes the sidewalk at 8am. We don't always need to be so literal, and have to understand everything going on in our lives, we don't always have to be completely aware of the changes that makes us grow. Isn't it beautiful, when you get lost in doing something you love, and the time has gone so quickly? We weren't counting down the minutes, waiting for something else, but enjoying what we had at that particular moment, in time.

I see the things that other people wouldn't normally see. I feel everyone's pain, and the things they don't necessarily need to say. Getting older, it's scary but I only have one shot at this life. I've read so many books, seen so many movies, been taught so many things, and I've felt things that I couldn't pinpoint with a particular emotion. Time does that to you. There are certain things in this world that school or a lesson can't tell you. The thing that we don't understand is that there is so much more out there in this world than we could ever even attempt to understand. Someone you never thought existed, you meet and they change your life forever. The things you do and the choices you make, change every bit of your life.

Time with people you love, is precious. Seeing them every day shouldn't change that. Just because we get used to having people around, doesn't mean that they could be here forever. That's why I never intend to leave someone feeling like I don't care, or produce hatefulness towards them, because what if someone that was dear to you, that you hadn't spoken to for a while because of a petty rift in your friendship/relationship with them, and they were to suddenly die? To leave earth's atmosphere with the malice of what you said to them on their mind. What if that was the last thing you said to them?

Even when we take a deep breath as a human, little jagged pieces of life cut into our throat. Problems that we haven't faced, or have to face every day can set our world spinning in a motion that we can't control, makes it hard to stay as a human. Always busy, never not doing something. Life is beautiful. WE don't understand that sometimes. We abuse it constantly everyday, taking for granted that we are here on this earth, present in no matter what body or mindset, we are here. Without understanding the depth of how we live. Certain emotions can cloud our judgement and enforce brutality upon our actions, because we failed to see the bigger picture. Time is this hidden creature. It is what keeps everything from happening at once. In time, something will click within you, it doesn't matter what it is but it will make you want to get up and do something you were meaning to do, intending to do but didn't.

To stop the bickering pain that seeps into you when you want to feel sun-happy, is to merely embrace it. No matter how hard it is to deal with emotional pain, it shapes us and that is how we grow. Loss is always going to be apart of our lives. Just like rain will always fall, or a metal toy left out in the rain will go rusty. No matter how much you don't like the loss of something, or someone, it is going to walk your way at several times in your life. Learn to embrace it and get closure. Time will do this.

"There is never time for anything. If you want it, you must make it."

A dear friend sent me this quote:

 "Try imagine a life without timekeeping. You probably can't. You know the month, the year, the date of the week. There is a clock on your wall or the dashboard of your car. You have a schedule, a calendar, a time for dinner or a movie. Yet all round you, timekeeping is ignored. Birds are not late. A dog does not check its watch. Deer do not fret over passing birthdays.

Man alone measures time.Man alone chimes the hour.And, because of this, man alone suffers a paralyzing fear that no other species does.The fear of time running out."

indy x

Tuesday, 26 August 2014

Rumours & Opinions

Opinion - a view or judgement formed about something, not necessarily based on fact or knowledge.

Rumour - a currently circulating story or report of uncertain or doubtful truth.

Humans talk, don't they? You're walking through a school hallway, going to the next classroom and you hear something you wish you didn't. Someone commenting on your hairstyle, or the funny way you walk - or maybe something they have heard. About you, of course. Who else could it be about? Apparently she said that you said that he has weird clothing. Or that you slept with her ex boyfriend and you just can't do that, right?

Rumours. Opinions. Apparently. Apparent lies. These are all little mutations of the human nature that create fire within society. Things that were never meant to be said, but you only told your best friend because it's only one person, right? Well this is how it goes. We as humans thrive off knowledge, gossip, knowing what is going on - even if it means that someone's rep is in jeopardy or someone could go to jail for doing something wrong, we have to know what is going on. 

It's just human nature, to learn little tidbits of information that others don't want us to know. But dealing with rumours is a different story.

Firstly think about who is spreading the rumour. If you know it isn't true, then there is no point bringing it up into conversation if people aren't talking about this. I have seen this many times before, and basically if you want the rumour to go away think of it as a fungus on your toe... you aren't exactly going to discuss that with people, now are you?

When people say bad things about you, it is normally because they are jealous or are below you. As Taylor Swift taught me, people throw rocks at things that shine. Remember this, people will support you, but they don't want you being better at things than them. Rumours start because people either want to bring you down, or haven't realised what they are doing is hurting you. 

Rumours aren't always from the source, as they get around they become more and more fabricated, and when they get back to you - it's almost like they were never to do with you in the first place, but people added bits and bits to the conversation to either wreck your reputation, or because it's a tricky game of chinese whispers, fun.

Don't believe everything you hear, the less you talk about the rumours, then they will die down. You are above the people wanting to bring you down.

Indy x

Sunday, 17 August 2014

100 Things To Be Happy About

You're feeling empty. Had a routine grey day, and you just want to come home sleep. You aren't too sure what there is to look for, you're hoping someone is going to come along and fix this cardboard sadness but you don't know what is missing. Remember that you are the ONLY person that can make yourself feel better, in all honesty no one can fix you but yourself. Being sad is not a good thing, yes it teaches us lessons - but to crave and glorify sadness, is the unhealthiest thing of all.

These little things won't fix your problems. They will just create moments where your dimples will show, and maybe you can giggle a little quietly, only if you want. Life is about those little moments, no one can feel happy all the time.

 1. When you watch a movie for the second time, and you understand parts that you hadn't seen the first time.

2. Looking forward to Friday.

3. When you have freshly shaved your legs and you feel smoothness under the duvet.

4. Putting juice into the freezer and coming back and it's now an iceblock.

5. Falling asleep with rain pattering on the roof.

6. Having a random, deep conversation with someone you didn't know you could have it with.

7. Reading old journals.

8. Seeing your friend's funny childhood photos.

9. Getting tan.

10. Someone sending you a random text telling you they are thinking of you.

11. Smores & bonfires.

12. Your parents suddenly deciding to give you freedom, and letting you get home at 1am from a party.

13. Night drives/adventures.

14. Cuddling.

15. Losing weight.

16. Loving someone who loves you.

17. Disney movies.

18. Flipping over the pillow to get the cold side.

19. Sleeping in your underwear.

20. Drinking milk out of the bottle.

21. Polaroid cameras.

22. Finding something you thought you had lost.

23. Somebody telling you that they are in love with you.

24. NO bra.

25. Kissing someone on New Year's.

26. The smell of a new book.

27. The smell of an old book.

28. Sunshine hitting your face so you have to close your eyes.

29. Star gazing.

30. Getting over someone you thought you couldn't.

31. Catching eyes with someone and thinking/feeling the exact same thing.

32. Having a best friend (Livy)

33. Finally feeling independent.

34. When you have worked hard and school for a test, and that hard work paid off.

35. Laughing so hard until you get stitch and it's hard to catch a breath.

36. Watching a fish tank.

37. When your pet decides to be affectionate.

38. A random act of kindness.

39. Proving someone wrong/winning a bet.

40. Catching up with your latest tv show episode.

41. The satisfied feeling of finishing a book and feeling like you have made a new friend.

42. The relief after peeing.

43. Hot showers.

44. Someone reaching to grab your hand.

45. The gap between your teeth.

46. Tumblr.

47. Scarves in the winter.

48. Seeing autumn leaves fall.

49. Writing with your favourite pen.

50. The smell of fresh air.

51. Baking chocolate chip cookies.

52. Letters.

53. When someone loves your gift.

54. Feeling that feeling of happiness that you helped someone.

55. Saving someone's life.

56. Beautiful clear oceans.

57. Compliments.

58. Putting together the perfect outfit.

59. Hot beverages.

60. Getting home from a trip.

61. The smell of the earth in the morning.

62. Hearing the wind scream.

63. A long chat with an old friend.

64. Flashbacks of things that make you think about your childhood.

65. Watching Harry Potter.

66. Hearing someone laugh.

67. Little kids playing.

68. Feeling good about yourself.

69. Surprise parties.

70. Preparing your favourite food and sitting down and eating it (avocado on sour bread and bacon)

71.  Smashing plates.

72. Making your mum proud.

73. Watching your dad cry with happiness.

74. Little kids when they learn to talk.

75. Being in an airport.

76. Forehead kisses.

77. Lying in a hammock.

78. The coolness of swimming in the sea/pool.

79. Having someone to lean on.

80. Friends trusting you enough to confide in you.

81. Someone keeping your secret.

82. The woods.

83. Hearing something on the news that wasn't bad.

84. Instagram.

85. Taking a selfie you are proud of.

86. Fresh strawberries.

87. Meditating.

88. Travelling.

89. Long phone calls.

90. You.

91. Accents.

92. A friend surprising you when you're sick or sad.

93. A new phone.

94. Drinking from the hose.

95. Baby sloths.

96. Acting like a kid.

97. Proving yourself wrong.

98. Good workouts/exercise.

99. Lying in bed, feeling wonderfully tired after a long day of being active.

100. Waking up on your own accord.

Indy x

Sunday, 27 July 2014

What is Love?

Love. The biggest and scariest emotion in the whole entire world. A society built around the simplest of emotion. We live for it, we breathe it. It's the most powerful emotion, over everything. It's sung about, written about, people die for it, it surrounds our world and courses through our veins as humans. But what is it? I've been asked this many times. What is love? How do you know when you're in love? Is there any particular feeling? When do you know that you are in love?

Love isn't something you can define. It isn't a perfectly worded answer in the dictionary, scripted to make you understand what the meaning is - in completion. 
Everyone's definition or understanding of this feeling is completely different. 

I asked one of my friends what they thought love was, and this was the answer I got. "Love is something that takes you by surprise. It's not something you can make yourself feel. Love is something that makes you feel an indescribable feeling. It's not like loving chocolates or loving a dress. You only love that temporarily. It brings everlasting joy."

And this is my definition.

I don't actually believe that love is that deep. I think that it's a simple emotion, a very beautiful and selfless one. I think that it's the humans and the circumstances that make this emotion complicated, prejudiced and difficult. I'm not a human that is going to glorify love. Every book or movie I have watched portrays the same acceptance speech of love, that it is endless and that they love everything about that person. But that's not real.

Real love is work. After being with someone for the longest of times, you start to catch their flaws. It's work, and it's hard. Love to me isn't always talking every day or them accepting you. They are parts of it, but love isn't a choice. It's when you're yelling at the tops of your lungs and they yell back at you to remind you of who you are, and that you aren't always right. It's the electric-ness you feel when you see their eyes light up when they are talking about what makes them happy, their passion. Listening to stupid theories of the universe, or mindless banter. 

"A realistic relationship is when two people, accept each other's past, support each other's present, and love each other enough to encourage each other's future. So don't rush love. Find a partner who encourages you to grow, who won't cling to you, who will let you go out into the world, and trust that you will come back. This is what true love is about."

I am a teenager and I don't know the definition. I shouldn't have to. This boy I used to know, although we never talk anymore, said to me something that I will never forget. 
"I think you're wrong about us being young. I think that young people have the best minds. Old people may be smarter and well educated but a new set of eyes will always think of things that scholars and the wisest old people in the world will never understand."

Love is saying all the wrong things at all the wrong moments. It's spilling your feelings at 4am when you should be asleep. It's being honest when it hurts. Love isn't a routine, isn't easy. It's singing at the top of your lungs. Even when you are at your lowest point, they still appreciate you, understand and are there. 
Love doesn't need to be glorified. It's not like any story you have ever read. It's your own personal experience, depending on the person that you are in love with. Love is a process in which you fall in love with them, it isn't a switch - that is why it is called falling. It doesn't have to be the most poetic shit, that they will love you endlessly and completely. You should do that yourself. Love yourself first. You are a full person, not a person that is looking to be completed. Because if that person leaves, decides that you are an expiry date. If one day they decide that they don't need you anymore, then what are you going to do? We accept the love we think we deserve. 

I don't think that you can love someone until you have seen every aspect of them. Until you have seen them when they have only had three hours of sleep because they were out late last night, and are snappy at you for no reason, or when they are breaking to the point of sadness. You only love someone when you can accept the good and bad parts of them, and you still choose them. I don't think you can love someone until you go through a lot of difficult things with them and still try to make it work. Because you love them enough to. When you experience new things with them.

Everyone's experience of love is different, but it's easily the best and worst feeling you will ever experience.

Be honest about how you feel about people while you're alive.

“Love has nothing to do with what you are expecting to get — only with what you are expecting to give — which is everything.”

"Love can change a person the way a parent can change a baby — awkwardly, and often with a great deal of mess."

from indy x

Wednesday, 9 July 2014

I am | You are

Do you ever get that feeling? That feeling that hits you when you are alone, bare faced and quiet. Lying in your room, in the warmth of your bed and your heart suddenly lurches. It's like you are trying to find what you are looking for? But you don't know what it is? Or this overwhelming cloudy sad fog that suffocates your thoughts and makes it hard to breathe? That you have so much to deal with right now that no one will understand, so you have to put on a brave face and swallow the urge to scream?

People everywhere breeze past me when I am trying to do something right and they make it look so easy. What is right and wrong?

I am the sludgy feeling you have when you first wake up and rub your eyes, full of fresh sleep and haziness.
I am the bark that crunches between your toes with discomfort as you try and reach the playground without getting any sharp little bits between your toes.
I am the calluses on your palms when you are swinging on the monkey bars and your hands sting so much, you can barely cling to the bars.
I am that cold, sticky embrace when your jeans cling to your sodden body, fresh from getting out of the water.
I am that extra ray of sunlight that gets into your eyes that just want to shut out and shield.
I am the crumbs on your bed that keep you tossing and turning at night.
The rain that comes before a shower, just a light whisper that lets you know the weather will not be pleasant.
I am the insomnia of those sleepless nights, the harsh words that slipped off your tongue that took everything too far, that were never meant to be said.
I am the ulcer on the tip of your tongue & the scalding of too hot - hot chocolate on your tongue that left it burnt and sore.
I am those displeasing moments, those words never said but were desperately needed too.
I am many things, different comparisons. I am different each day; I have mood swings. I suck at small talk, as I want to talk about the many galaxies roaming about in my head. I falter in my step and a pang of insecurity shadows me.

But after my sulking days, those hated hours, times when I get something wrong I know someday I will be able to figure it out. I know that I will be able to be thankful for the things that I have, to value the life changing people to grace my life. I will be able to learn and to prosper and listen.

Now, I am talking to you. Not just myself. You are not a failure.
 I know that for me personally, I am eager to please and to help others, desperate to prove and justify myself. I do many things wrong, I give up and I don't always try again. But my heart is in the right place. Under everything I am, I want to try my best and do things right.

I know that under the huge spurs of the moments that get you in trouble, or whatever people say about you physically or mentally - you have a caring soul that reaches out to help others and you yearn to get things right and just to understand what this is all about. You need to breathe and understand that everything that is worth it, takes time. After a lot of struggle you are going to turn out fine and do well with your life.

I see and hear this everyday. People I know; my closest friends, strangers, girls and guys at school. Insecurity. Not feeling good enough. The real question is, who do you have to be good enough for?
You have to be good enough for yourself.

This is a bit of a text I sent to one of my best friends.

You realise that you are the only person that can make yourself feel better and get yourself into a better mindset. Your body is the house you grew up in, why try burn it to the ground? There is nothing that I can say to make you feel better about yourself. The way you see yourself is very different to how I see you. I guess you don't see how happy your prescence makes me, or when you wrote me that note and my heart literally fell onto that paper. You're you, you don't have to be amazing all the time. You are the only person that can make yourself feel better and comparing yourself to other people and thinking that you wish you were someone else; prettier, smarter, skinnier, taller, or whatever you feel is not going to help you. You can't change your body, it is just a case and a shell of your inner soul and I think that you're wonderful. who do you have to be? No one but you. And if someone rejects you, it's just their failure to see the things you have in looks and personality to offer. It's up to you.

Sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.

Indy x

Wednesday, 25 June 2014

Not Everyone is Beautiful

Beautiful. Pleasing the mind or senses aesthetically. Attractive. Pretty. Good-looking. Pleasing. These synonyms all portray the same thing. They all have the same meaning. Beautiful is classed as someone that is physically flawless. But is it? Is it really skin deep, or is it so much more?

This word, beautiful, is thrown around in the chaotic nest of words that every language swallows up. Everyone is classed as beautiful, no matter what you look like, no matter your character traits. We, as humans all share something in common. We are all beautiful. That is what is drummed into our heads on a daily basis, as a form of positivity. But in reality - people must not be thinking straight.

Being beautiful has become a task. If you're not skinny enough, have the right clothing or hairstyle, keeping up to date with the latest trends. This isn't the truth. Socially inept; inbred - is the reality. Yet, you don't even know the person you are judging on looks. We say that every human is beautiful, no matter who they are. But we are all lying to ourselves. Society decides on what your looks class you in. If you aren't physically appealing, or you are ugly - then you are shunned. Shunned from a partner that is 'out of your league,' maybe even from a job that you have worked so hard for - because lets just put it nicely, your looks didn't fit the quota.

Physical appearance has become so important that we have lost what really counts, our souls. The inside of our minds are crammed full with wordly logic, experiences, and wonders of how we see the world. Our bodies or outside forms are merely a shell to our inner beauty.

The word beautiful, is a nasty one. Every person in this life desires to be accepted. Maybe even to just fit in, to be liked and not lonely. But do we as humans, not have the capacity - or the ability to come up with a word that not everybody is so easily categorised in, as being beautiful?

I understand that calling people beautiful is trying to send off a positive message, a message of equality to basically all of the human race, but do we dig a little deeper? Do we take the time to get to know someone a little bit more instead of just categorising their whole existence into one word - beautiful? I want to be able to look at a person and think, they are kind, balanced, smart, important, vivacious, intellectual. Everybody has worth, talent, potential. They deserve to shine. Not everybody needs to fit the quota, that everybody is beautiful. Because every single person has their own little universe inside their head, that contributes to making the world a unique and entrancing place.

Not everybody is beautiful. Everybody is valuable, worthy, important.